Field Notes 20260420-20260426 - Retrospective
Deep Sea Diver
This has been an interesting week of same ol’ struggles that I’ve been facing over the past few weeks and a couple of new discoveries that are shaking me out of the perceived rut. I feel like I’m methodically working my way back up out of a valley with the recent progress. I’ve also begun to change how I use some of my tools for consciousness exploration and I’m liking the results.
Switching things up from my usual “Manifestation Sundays” may be a new direction that I’ll be maintaining for a while. Moving forward, I will be using days during which I have less time for sessions as my time to manifest. This configuration gives me a lot more chances to practice purposeful, directed, and immersive visualizations. The benefit isn’t simply the practice of manifestation but also stretching and working out my non-physical vision.
Sundays are now dedicated to “deep sea diving”. The purpose is to explore depths to my inner self, and beyond, that I normally shy away from. I don’t necessarily stay away on purpose, not because I’m afraid, but mostly because of the unknown. I like to be prepared for anything, but that’s not reality, is it. So, on Sundays we dive.
Read on.
Afternoon
- Sun: Taurus 7°
- Moon: Leo 28° | Waxing Gibbous
Meditation
- 45 Minutes.
- Expand App, timer section, F18.
Thinking back on yesterday’s session I realize just how good of a test it was in contrast to today’s session. The main difference between the two sessions is that today I gave myself a destination before proceeding to go deep. The results are interesting, so much so that I may have found a new favorite exploratory meditation for the week.
The setup is a bit of a hybrid of the previous premise. I went through the regular prep as I normally would. Initiating F10 (mind awake, body asleep) was very fast. Before expanding in F12 (expanded awareness) I spent a little bit of time shutting down the physical body limb by limb as I’ve become accustomed to doing for deeper sessions using Dick Sutphen’s method.
One more thing that I tend to forget but didn’t this time: I quickly ran the chakra activation, balance, and charging routine. The idea here was to generate an energetic state that was primed for further altered state work. Sure, I might not be leaving my body in this session, but the etheric double, Ka, whatever you’re comfortable calling it, is engaged.
During my final pass (charging) I was moving from root to crown relatively quickly and felt a surge of energy in the third eye, which was accompanied by what I can only describe as a voluminous gold orb flash from within and darting from behind the eyes in an outward direction. Slightly startling and very exciting, it’s nice to experience the fruits of energy work in a pragmatic sense.
An Aside: I’ve noticed that the foot jerks I’ve been getting a lot lately actually do have a function. During the process of systematically “turning off” physical sensations I would click-out briefly, a foot jerk would occur enough to snap me back but not enough to knock me out of the ideal state. During one of these moments, as I was snapped back into focus, I was left with the impression of the astrological sign for Cancer.
Finally I quickly moved into F18 (heart energy) and began the bulk of this meditation. I’ve mentioned several times in the past how I find F18 to be the most comfortable focused state. It feels like my home-base and often the destination when I don’t really have a goal. Today there is a mission, and the usual setting of F18 is the same as where I start my prep: The Blackwater Tower.
Now, when I run the prep I’m simply visualizing. This is a good warm up before the session gets going. What I like to do is to loosely point my awareness to what I intend to visualize and let whatever come simply come. I’m not driving the visualization beyond this target point, so sometimes it can get a bit weird.
I found myself in the main hall of The Blackwater Tower. The exits to the overlook are visible, but my attention is on the center of the large room. There is a platform; it looks like something you’d use for energy work. I named it the “energy center”. Next to the platform are stone stairs that wind downward. I walked the spiraling stairs as far down as they go.
At the bottom of the stairs is another large stone-lined room. At the center of this room is a huge circular opening where water gently swirls inward. Along the stone-lined walls are deep sea diving suits. I think it’s pretty clear what’s supposed to happen here.
Next I find myself in a deep sea diving suit as I descend into the black pool. “The Blackwater Tower” name makes absolute sense now; aside from sounding “cool” I didn’t really realize why I called it that to begin with a few weeks ago. The water in this internal well is as black as the void. I don’t know how deep it goes, but that’s what I intend to figure out.
As I walk inside the pool I begin counting down from 7 to 1 in a rhythmic chant (this is a Dick Sutphen process as well):
Down, down, down, number 7 - deeper, deeper, deeper - down, down, down, number 6 - deeper, deeper, deeper - down, down, down, number 5…”
The further down I descend, the more and more identification with anything fades. The black void is unrelenting and thick. I am simply a point of consciousness dropping and dropping. To where? The answer to that will have to come from another session, as I was knocked clear out of this process by suddenly and forcefully coughing. Upon coming back to physical reality I realized that my mouth was agape and extremely dry.
Experiment
After the session was over I set my gear aside, set a strong intention to enter a more immersive altered state, rolled over and began threshold hunting. Reframing what happens after the meditation during these longer sessions over the weekend as “threshold hunting” is helping a lot. I give myself a task to focus on and the operating mind actually gets busy staying awake as my physical body softly drifts towards slumberland.
Today I actually came pretty darn close to breaking through my recent drought with this process; however, I still mistimed a few exits and fell into dreamland. This is never really disappointing, I love sleeping. So, for me, the second half of these sessions is a win no matter what happens.
Upon waking up from one of these cycles I noticed how still I was laying. I was reminded of the “head lifting” technique that’s had its surge on Reddit a little while ago and gave it a shot. I think because I was spending so much time diving deep, or down, in the meditation, I kind of automatically took this direction rather than lifting up.
To my amusement I had more “room” to go down rather than my previous attempts to lift up. So I kept pushing further and further down. It felt like I was stretching well beyond the daybed that I was laying on. The confusing part happened as I felt myself lift up — that’s not right, I thought — while I was moving down… nonetheless that’s what was happening. I was quickly “rubberbanded” back to the physical location after a few moments.
I attempted this maneuver a couple more times on two more passes: threshold hunting -> brief unconscious period -> physical waking -> dropping myself down. On each pass, more or less, the experience was very similar to the first one. The key difference for me in this movement versus the “head lift” method is that when I orient “down” my entire etheric double moves down, not just the head.
I now have very strong reason to believe that these past two sessions, and subsequent experiments after, have shed light on my natural exit vector as well as main threshold.
All I have to do now is turn that belief into a knowing.
Through The Week of 20260420-20260426
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/field-notes-20260425-friday
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/field-notes-20260424-friday
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/field-notes-20260423-thursday
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/field-notes-20260422-wednesday