Temperance
Field Notes 20260504-20260510 - Retrospective
Another week of adjustments and most importantly a lesson in letting things go so they have a chance to resurface on their own terms. It’s not a new idea or a concept for me, or anyone really, it is one that is hard to fully accept and realize. With an adjustment to my physical training that follows seasonal changes I let that process also guide me in releasing my grip on my metaphysical practice.
The second week of increasing my morning running mileage has been going very well and I’m so glad the time has come to change it all up again. With that came an interesting challenge of not recognizing that the body wanted more rest during the mid week. I skipped my second day of weight lifting because I just could not get going on Thursday morning for the second week in a row. In the past I would have been very hard on myself for this but this time I had no problem adjusting and moving on.
Things change, bodies get older, we outgrow routines, new situations take precedence over habit, etc. If there’s one aspect of reality that we can all rely on it is change. Oftentimes we greet change with resistance and if we’re lucky we learn, eventually, that there’s nothing we can do about it aside from practicing acceptance.
For example, I would have loved to have all the time in the world to meditate and illustrate this week but it’s getting warmer outside and my backyard sprinkler valves decided to give up the ghost… all 4 of them. I could just shut the water off and not bother repairing them but then the flowers and trees of the garden would suffer, the insects that depend on them would suffer, pollinators would have to find a new source of food, etc. The small slice of an ecosystem that is our property would cease to function and countless other conscious beings would find themselves in hardship.
Now, I’m not an important deity that all these things rely on but I am responsible for the space that I occupy in this physical life. I also have too much empathy for my own good, ask Kim. So, this week I spent my free time fighting pipes, valves, and digging to China to restore irrigation function to our little sanctuary. I still had time to meditate but after digging in the hot sun how much energy do you think I would retain for sustained and immersive altered states? Not a lot, but I had noticed a shift.
By routing my attention to things that needed my attention I released pressure from things that weren’t bearing fruit. When I would return to my practice with whatever energy I had left I was pleasantly surprised by how well things clicked in place. I’ve begun to experience things again that I haven’t in 6 weeks.
My meditations were a lot more easy going but also very familiar of what I remembered prior to 6 weeks ago. I was able to engage in a string of lucid dreams and a projection experience. I was able to glean information from my return mechanics and determine the difference I wasn’t able to all of last year. My tiny illustrations have moved from mounting pressure in the evening to get them done to simply enjoying the process, no matter what happens (or doesn’t).
All of this wasn’t a result of simply modifying my physical training with the changing seasons, there was another crucial aspect to my practice that I flat out dropped: energy work. I’m not talking about activating, balancing, and charging chakras, although that is part of it all. I’m talking about clearing my toroidal field and taking care of my etheric double.
Last year I wrote a two part essay on this process, the first part being the most relevant to this week’s retrospective:
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/clearing-the-field
During this whole time that I’ve been struggling to generate immersive altered states I failed to recognize something that was likely a major source of it all, or at the very least didn’t help anything. Six weeks ago we spent some time at Children’s Hospital, where I likely picked up some attachments that needed to be sent home.
So, early on this week I did a couple of meditation sessions during which I directly addressed this. Coincidentally my quality of sleep bounced right back to its excellent self again nearly immediately, lucid dreams came back with some heft, at least one projection occurred, and familiar-feeling meditative trance states finally returned.
I am in no way claiming that “clearing the field” did all of this, it is absolutely not the whole story much like adjusting my physical training isn’t the whole story. Both of these things are part of the whole and the mindset which arises from doing them is the third.
Needless to say I will continue the practice of “clearing my field” with energy work a lot more rigorously moving forward. Am I going to agonize over it and stress out? No. Am I going to feel like it’s a chore that I don’t really feel like doing and would rather focus on something else? Of course. Is it important enough to do so I can actually engage in proper consciousness exploration? Absolutely.
I have a short and general process that I wrote up for myself last year that I want to share regarding this topic, more on that in the near future as I plan on making that into its own process-essay.
Overall it was a nice week that gave us my birthday (May The 4th Be With You!), “The Disclosure” kicked off with a first batch of files and videos released by the government (underwhelming but expected), and of course I can’t forget the most amazing person in my life who also happens to be the mother to our two amazing boys: Happy Mother’s Day Kim!
Through The Week of 20260504-20260510
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/show-me-whats-already-flowing
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/two-returns
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/back-to-bed
https://perceptindex.substack.com/p/dog-head
