I feel, I see, I experience, and I let go.
Field Notes 20260709 - Thursday
Working weekdays are pretty quiet on the meditation subject. The primary goal with these days is to focus on metaphysical hygiene, energy work, or brief manifestation runs. There’s a fourth category that I like to do when my days are full of work-related context, and that’s a simple 30-minute meditation focused on presence, stillness, oneness.
Today’s Field Notes illustration:
The radiant triangle. In the engraving traditions of seventeenth-century Hermetic and Christian emblem books, the sun-glory crowned the plate: a burst of rays surrounding a triangle, most often carrying Hebrew yods to name it the Tetragrammaton, the unutterable presence radiating over the world below. Stripped of the letters, the device becomes pure geometry, and that is the form here: a single point at the center, an apex-up triangle around it, both held within a radiant circle whose rays press outward past its edge. The point is the monad, the source before form; the triangle is the first emanation, three from one, its upward apex the old sign of fire and ascent; the circle is the filled being; the rays are what happens when the boundary stops holding. It speaks to the oldest claim in sacred geometry, that everything unfolds outward from a dimensionless center and never actually leaves it. In meditation this is the sequence in concentric order: the point at the center of the chest, the glow as it expands, the whole self illuminated, the edges gone. The light was never contained; the container was the practice.
Afternoon
Meditation
- 30 minutes.
- Expand App, timer section, F18 (heart energy).
F18 is my “go-to” for stillness. It’s not taught in The Gateway Experience like the other focus states, so a couple years ago I ended up just trying the binaural beats “assigned” to F18 and seeing where it goes. The surprising factor, probably because I had no goal, was just experiencing it. I feel like not having any introduction to this served as the gateway (heh) for me to begin understanding what it means to be present, still, one.
You don’t need binaural beats to practice stillness; it’s totally not necessary. What I do find helpful is the fast track of binaural beats, after some practice, in dropping you into ideal states so you are properly primed. Again, I often do this meditation with absolutely nothing, because at the core it’s the most basic meditation you can learn.
After prep, discarding distracting thoughts, and settling into F10 (mind awake, body asleep), I begin to focus on my breath. Oftentimes this is all you need, and in the beginning it really is all that your attention should be focused on. With my mind on the breath, I begin to sink deeper and deeper toward the center of my body with the target being the center of my chest.
With each breath out, I fall deeper and deeper into the ideal state. Somewhere along the process I let go of the breath and the deepening and switch to visualizing a soft white glow emerging from the center of my chest. When I say “visualize”, to me that begins with an actual visualization of a soft, white, glowing orb gently expanding within me to fill my entire being. The visualization is dropped fairly quickly because I tend to feel the situation better than running an image loop.
As the soft, white glow emanates out of the center of my being, yet contained, I feel the light fill every part of me, and with every pass I become closer and closer to experiencing everything that constructs me. It’s like a consciousness flashlight acknowledging and validating every cell in myself.
I feel, I see, I experience, and I let go. Eventually there is no more distinction from the mind to the body, from where the body stops and the rest of the environment starts. I am one with myself and my surroundings.
Often half an hour is simply not enough, or I fall asleep, which is very easy with this kind of session. Sometimes, if the setting is ideal and you have absolutely no time limit, you’ll find yourself “yanked” out and into another consciousness operating mode entirely (projection).
This is where a lot of people come to a realization that you don’t need fancy frameworks, complicated words, or long explanations of the mechanics of consciousness to project.
Entering human trance and altered states is perfectly natural and should not be difficult or particularly trained. Practicing stillness while keeping your mind awake is a good test to see for yourself.
