Or maybe I’ll pre-remember it.
Field Notes 20260717 - Friday
I set out this afternoon to cast a question which already had an answer. Sometimes this happens, sometimes it happens frequently. Retrocausality is a mind-bending and oftentimes headache-inducing subject, but there is a way to approach it without hurting yourself (maybe, I’m not promising anything).
Today’s Field Notes illustration:
An original composition - the Liminal that met me at the threshold. Out of a pool of light, whirling and changing shape, a recognizable figure emerged: a heart-shaped structure, bright green, built from shifting geometric shapes and varying shadows. One half carried half of a female face, calmly staring out from the midst of the display; the other half was the geometry. The encounter speaks to a week spent following a pull toward F18 without needing a reason, and to a question that carried its answer before it was cast. As a meditation focus, it holds the instruction it kept repeating every hour or two: remember me. What you brand with importance, you will experience more of.
You can take a spiritual and metaphysical route to wrap your head around retrocausality, but I bet for at least a while your head will still hurt. In short, there is no time. Time is an illusion — or rather, how we perceive movement “through time” without the ability to go back is the illusion. Past, present, and future are happening, have already happened, and will happen. The “hardware” which we use to navigate this slice of reality is tuned toward forward-facing and linear experience, the passage of time.
If you know the beginning, you will know the end. For where the beginning is, there the end will be. — Gospel of Thomas Logion 18
Okay, that’s great, but what about retrocausality? Well, like most systems that are tuned, you can re-tune them. In the process, you’ll realize that you’ve experienced retrocausality many times in your current existence but simply chose to dismiss it.
Have you ever experienced something that left an impression on you? The feeling that it’s probably important but you don’t really know why? Perhaps it’s a feeling that you are remembering something new when you’ve never experienced it before, as paradoxical as that sounds (and why it sticks out).
That’s your intuition speaking up. Pay attention to it, and the more that you do, the easier it will be to not simply brush it off and forget about it. In fact, you’ll discover that you can’t help but notice and remember each and every time something like this happens.
By the way, this isn’t just a function for “mind stuff” — it’s all experience of any kind. Another way of thinking about it is the old example of not seeing a particular make and model of a car often but then seeing it literally everywhere as soon as you buy one for yourself.
At this point, your subconscious received enough information that such things are important to you, and in turn it tuned your experience of reality to include and remember these events by flagging them as they happen.
The importance that you brand something with and the attention that you hold towards it determine what you will experience more of.
When this week began, I felt a pull to spend more time in F18 (heart energy) during my afternoon meditations. It’s been a little while, but I also didn’t have any particular reason to return to that focus state. I don’t argue with intuition anymore, so I just let go and flow, maaan.
Yesterday I had a brief meditation focusing on F18 again and soon afterwards took a catnap. When I was coming out of it — and to my surprise — a brief Liminal display appeared in the same manner that it normally does while I observe this threshold into waking state.
The Liminal began in a pool of light, whirling and changing shape rapidly before a recognizable figure emerged. Bright green with varying shadows and geometric shapes, shifting and moving, all the while forming a heart-shaped structure with half of a female face calmly staring at me in the midst of this energetic display. Half of it was the face, the other was the geometry.
This Liminal stuck with me as they all do, but I did my best to continue on with the regular business of the day. Every hour or two it would pop back into my mind as if saying, “Remember me.” So, I sketched it and promptly forgot about it, as I’ve built this function into things I sketch. If something continues to bug me, then it’s probably looking to be expressed; sketching for me alleviates and releases such situations.
Today I sat down and, without going into detail, after a little bit of consultation decided to stick with this week’s F18 theme. As usual, the prep was good; settling in F10 was gradual and smooth. Every attempt at speeding up trance arrival was met with resetting, which is good, so I “sat back” and trusted that whatever happens will happen and all will be okay.
Once I was fully in the target focus state, I cast the following query: “Show me the heart as it stands now.” This is going to sound confusing, but before exiting and joining the rest of the waking consciousness reality, I remember a soft pulsing green orb and a thought passing by in the middle of absolute stillness, “I should remember the heart-shaped Liminal, it’s probably important.”
I’m not sure exactly what the symbolism behind the energetic green heart-shaped geometrical Liminal with a woman’s face emerging from one of the halves is, but I have a feeling I’ll figure it out sooner rather than later. Or maybe I’ll pre-remember it.
