20251224

Meditation

• Afternoon.
• 30 Minutes.
• Dick Sutphen - Chakra Meditation.
• Usual mid-week chakra balancing.
• After this morning’s 8-mile run in the rain I’ve been somewhat drained but also energized. It’s hard to explain. Running always energizes me, but sometimes I have to be extra alert like today.
• Anyways, it was a nice Christmas Eve run full of grit and determination.
• Good choice in general, even if Sutphen’s work tends to drop me in and out of existence, it seems.
• Nice to put something on and let my subprocesses run as I allow myself to click in and out as needed.
• Attempted a quick altered state but never “launched.” Needed the rest.

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20251225

Meditation

• Afternoon, 30 minutes, Expand App Focus 21 timer.
• Christmas excitement (children) left me tired. Made it to F15, stopped there.
• Kept getting jolts on the way up through focus levels. Took it as a sign F21 wasn’t happening today.
• Manifestation session in F15 with some foot and hand twitches.
• Stopped in F12 on the way out, did usual contact proclamation.
• NVC: someone drinking a 1-liter bottle of clear liquid. Guessing live. Hydration message from guides. I listened.

Micro Lucid Dreams & Liminal

• Intent: altered state experience (lucid dream/projection) + “connect with my guides.”
• Got 3 rapid-fire lucid dreams afterward. None made sense, none were staging environments.
• Another Liminal appeared in the liminal space between altered state and waking.
• Increasingly confident these Liminals are communications from guides. What I’m viewing is a “3D shadow” of higher dimensional object/entity.
• Theory: these visions occur from DMT flush as one state ends and waking begins. Seen Liminals between all state transitions.
• Central realization: the objects are my perception of transmitted data. Communication is data, data is interpreted. Sender uses their symbolic language, recipient only has their own constructs/archetypes to interpret with. Angels looked the way they did because of symbolic language at that time. Modern culture has radically different symbolic language based on morals and technology. That shapes perception of “foreign” data packets.
• Questions: Who/what is sending? Actual NHI? Human construct/archetype? Maybe collective name for contact entity that exists in non-local?
• Guides might not be personal but generic to everyone. Perception changes their shape/presentation, gestalt intact.
• Maybe these non-local entities are always broadcasting, we just pick up the signal. Not special for being “chosen.” It’s your choice to turn and look.
• Today’s Liminal: appeared on head bust, geometric at first (round circles for eyes/mouth), then rapidly changing faces. All speaking in unison, single unified message. Couldn’t hear but felt it was same message.
• Recurring type: shifting/changing visual planes, glitchy behavior.
• Contact protocol in F12 + intent to connect + early Liminal showing “3” written three times → all pointing at angels, biblical archetypes. Cherubim?
• Went to biblical angels/Western esotericism because that’s my cultural background. Makes sense I’d pull from deep archetypical imagery when confronted with foreign DATA.

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20251226

Meditation

• Afternoon.
• 35 Minutes.
• Expand App, timer section, Focus 15.
• I’m risking sounding like a broken record, but this document is created for documentation, so here it goes: very tired today.
• Difficulty keeping my focus, constantly blanking, risking falling asleep at every turn of this meditation.
• I chose F15 because of how I felt yesterday. Today felt similar but somehow I’m more tired. I guess it makes sense.
• After this “struggle-bus” session I was ready to sleep.
• I think my primary focus should be on rest and recovery for the next couple days. An intensive week is up ahead and I want to make the most of it.

Lucid Dreams

• Same progression of micro lucid dreams as yesterday afternoon.
• A Liminal did appear after the first or the second lucid dream, but ultimately had a very difficult time perceiving it.
• All of this was followed by a couple more failed attempts.

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20251227

Guided Meditation

• Afternoon.
• 35 Minutes.
• The Gateway Experience, Wave VI - Odyssey, Movement to Locale 2 - Intro Focus 21.
• I decided to repeat this one again today. I have done this tape several times this year with every step I make toward feeling like “I’m ready.” In my opinion, I moved on to Focus 21 earlier than I should have. This isn’t bad. It illuminated the reality that shadow work doesn’t ever stop and that there’s always more to do.
• In the last few months I’ve noticed a marked progression in my response to F21 frequency. Slowly and over weeks, that space has been more and more accessible.
• Sometimes it’s also nice to just follow a guided meditation without any plan.
• The “bright light of Focus 21” is more evident now than ever. I’m still learning the frequency and getting comfortable with it, but today once I moved through and entered F21, I did notice something new.
• Upon entering F21 I observed cascading and shimmering light displayed in my field of view for a couple minutes. It was very nice and soothing. The “light curtain” didn’t have a single color but rather iridescent in appearance.
• Once I was moved out of F21 and back to F12, I gave my thanks and gratitude, extended an invitation for contact from individuals aligned with unconditional love, and moved out of the meditation entirely.

Lucid Dreams

• Per usual, I shut everything off and rolled over for an hour or so to catch an altered state or two.
• This week has not been as strong and busy as last week when it comes to lucid dreams and projections.
• Much like the week began, I had the same brief and short-lived lucid dreams. In fact, I’d categorize most of them as dreams where I become lucid much later than a traditional lucid dream.
• No projections today.
• The last dream where I became lucid was a little interesting. The setting was the agency’s office for which I work. I was talking to colleagues at one part of the building while I got a Slack notification from another colleague wishing me a good evening as they were heading out. That was odd. This particular person never does this. I said goodbye to the folks I was having a conversation with and headed back to my desk as I read the message again. In that moment I became lucid and with that started to sprint down a hallway, jump in the air, and dive into the ground. As I hit the ground I entered a wormhole. I traveled down this one in mostly darkness for a long time, much longer than usual. Flashes of strobing white light passed me as I twisted and turned through the structure. For a minute I was wondering if this is actually leading to something, but nonetheless I came to a waking state, opening my eyes and seeing my office from the same direction where I left it.
• No Liminals to record today.

Bedtime

• This was interesting and you might be seeing more entries with notes from late-night/bedtime activities as I’ve been experimenting around this time a bit more lately.
• Usually I’m so tired at the end of the day that I hit the pillow, do a quick check of my system, and it’s lights out very quickly.
• Lately I’ve been pausing a bit and throwing questions out into the void in a sort of semi-meditative state that I often find myself in before losing consciousness.
• With my recent conclusions about the Liminals and subsequent quieting of their activity, I began to make a serious request to my higher self about connecting.
• I made a heartfelt request to connect, higher self or guides (or both, because it’s probably both).
• When I do this type of one-way communication I visualize “releasing” the “data packet” and watch it ascend.
• What’s neat is that over the last 6 months or so I haven’t had to visualize any of that. It happens and I see the “data” ascending upward. It’s very quick, very fuzzy looking blob that moves from bottom-center to the top and out of my field of view.
• I call this “one-way” communication because there’s never an immediate answer.
• This time I got an immediate response that almost snapped me out of my trance.
• The moment the “data packet” left my view there was a burst of concentrated, bright ball of light that seemed to come from the top-right of my field of view to the center, then spread very quickly and dissipated. All of this happens very quickly, nothing slow about it.
• Neat!

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20251228

Guided Meditation

• Afternoon.
• 40 Minutes.
• Expand App, timer section, Focus 21.
• Prep went well, moving through focus levels was uneventful.
• After a moment of silence in F21 I did make a request to connect with guides and my higher self. After a bit more of the same I made my exit into Focus 15.
• While in F15 I did some manifestation work. This time I focused on specific situations, small movements so to speak, of the larger picture. Employing all of your senses on a general scenario isn’t as efficient as focusing on specific aspects of it. That’s my focus recently.
• F12, usual business.
• F10, set intent for altered state experience, physical affirmation, and exit.

Lucid Dream

• Much like the rest of the week, this lucid dream was another regular dream in which I became lucid.
• The setting was an evening walk with Kim.
• We were making our way out of the neighborhood behind our house and turned down a main street.
• Without much of a warning Kim darts across the main street. I become lucid here.
• She was on a mission. I run out into the street after her and realize what’s going on. I decide it’s best we fly where she wants to go and begin to take off while scanning the ground to pick her up.
• Lucid dream breaks up at this point and my awareness goes down the familiar portal, exiting with warm white light flooding my field of view.

Liminal

• I did catch a somewhat recognizable Liminal this time.
• It wasn’t very big, same location as always at the bottom right of my field of view.
• The overall shape was purely geometric this time, didn’t materialize or “build” up to anything more than a few shapes.
• The primary shapes were a circle/sphere and a square/box. Some shadow triangles could be seen vibrating and moving about behind and around the main structure.
• Overall, the entire Liminal was acting the same as before: jittering motion, shifting, redrawing, always in motion while appearing still.
• After about half a minute or so the Liminal dematerialized into a single point and exited my reality.

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